I’m Arixxxx, I suffer from deep depression and very serious anxiety (I get to hurt myself). I have suicidal tendencies, I don’t know how to explain it to you, it’s something that, while you are well, you are not, occupying the mind is part of the process to forget for a while, it’s distressing, sad, painful, INDIFFERENT. I fight against her since 12 years old, always searching alternative forms, I never liked the idea of using antidepressants (you can try alternative ways, such as dealing only with psychologists, and trying to distract yourself all the time by doing the things you love doing in your day to day). There was a point that I had to walk alone, but unfortunately I couldn't be alone without anything, that was consuming me, because I didn't want to accept. I moved to another city, lived with people that I didn't like
